This entry marks my 42nd official online journaling session. Tonight is my last night in France of my semester studying abroad. You should know that I am very excited to be seeing my family and my friends from back home, but I am also desperately sorry to be leaving my host family and the new friends I made in Dijon. Today, however, was not so bad as far as "last days" go. I woke up around 9am and went for a run down past Place Wilson, the route I usually take alone or with Peter. Then I plopped down in front of my host family's TV, hoping to catch the France3 spot on Les Discjonctes. Unfortunately it actually ran last night, so I didn't get to see it this morning. Here are two links though (you might want to check them out sooner rather than later, since I think France3 regularly culls the daily news emissions):
version longue à partir 16min15 : http://jt.france3.fr/player/regions/?jt=20091211&id=b21a_1920
version courte à partir de 4min26 : http://jt.france3.fr/player/regions/?jt=20091211&id=bourgogne_soir3
Then I went to lunch with some of the people from the team: Bruno, Laeticia, Lucie, Natalie, Christophe, Remi, and Yoann (and Manu joined us at the very end). We went to a place called Le Parvis, a hip little restaurant squeezed between two others, located behind St. Benigne. It got super chilly last night and my face nearly froze on my walk from the house to the restaurant. Le Parvis is known for its burgers, and I thought it was an appropriate transition from French to American cuisine. Of course, my "Ducky Burger" consisted of canard and foie gras de canard (duck meat and foie gras of duck) with cassis sauce, so the ressemblance to an American hamburger pretty much ended with the bun. I think both of the burgers made with ground beef both included epoisse, an extremely pungent regional cheese. So even though they were burgers, they were definitely French. It was yet another fun event with Les Discjonctes. You probably get sick of me telling you how much I will miss them, but hopefully I've given you an idea of how much fun I have had. Even if we didn't talk about anything big (I remember arguing about how people over a certain age should have to retake a driving test, which Laeticia vehemently opposed), I feel like a hallmark of friends is that you can enjoy their company, even if you're not doing anything particularly exciting.
After a long lunch I raced around to do some quick grocery shopping for dinner. Carleigh and I are spending the night in the Roissy Marriott and we wanted to have a real Dijon picnic for dinner. So I picked up a half-bottle of Burgundy red, a baguette, some chevre, some tangerines, and two raspberry tarts. I also had an apple left over from when I made the apple pie and the sausage that was part of my Discjonctes care package (which I discovered today was Bruno's contribution...). Then I did some last-minute packing. You will be proud to know that this was the first time in my life I did 90% of the packing in the week leading up to my departure, rather than leaving it all for the last minute, like I usually do. I would be lying if I said I had a single centimeter of extra room. There were some things, like mostly-empty shampoo bottles, which I absolutely had to leave behind. I literally have no more room.
Joseph left for the south-east of France yesterday morning, so Noelle didn't have a car to drive me and all of my bags to the gare. I asked at lunch if someone from the team could take me and Christophe graciously offered. I was surprised (and pleased) when Remi and Yoann showed up with him too. They helped me stuff my two big suitcases into Christophe's smallish car (one was crushing Remi in the backseat). We arrived at the gare with 45 minutes to spare - I am now in the habit of always arriving early for trains and planes. We hung out in the cafe for a little while before heading up to the platform. I can't tell you how nice it was that the 3 of them came to see me off. After we loaded my bags onto the train we stood on the platform and talked for a little while. I asked if they took bets on whether or not I was going to cry and Remi replied they all bet that I would, so it wasn't a contest. He said (in French): "you had no chance: #1 you're an American and #2 you're a girl. He turned out to be right. I didn't cry when I gave each of them a hug and bisous, but as I stepped onto the train and walked down through the car towards my seat the tears arrived. I don't usually cry at homecomings or farewells. I'm certainly not above crying at a sappy book or movie, but for some reason I don't usually cry when leaving people.
I feel like I should emphasize that my saddness at leaving has nothing to do with how I feel about people at home. Of course I will be overjoyed tomorrow when I see Mom and Holly at the airport. Of course I can't wait to have endless girltalk with Katie, Amy Jo, and Paley. Of course I will love hanging out with my family and all of my friends from Cincinnati, and then my friends from Wake in a few weeks. I am sad to leave because I am worried I will never experience this particular kind of happiness ever again. I certainly plan on going back to Dijon someday, and I hope some of my Dijonnais friends can come to the US. But it won't ever be quite the same, and that makes it bittersweet. But that's also life. We can never hold onto the things we cherish most, because nothing is ever really ours. It's all a gift and all-too fleeting. But I feel blessed to have experienced this particular gift.
Le semestre, c'etait une grande plaisir et je vais garder mes bons souvenirs des amitiés et des bons moments.
